1st Sunday of Lent


1st Sunday in Lent
Jesus in the desert
Jesus in the desert

Picture courtesy of catholic.org

Temptation: “The desire to do something, especially something wrong or unwise”. – Oxford Dictionary

Some other dictionary’s go a step further and say not just wrong, but evil. In the bible the word for tempting can also mean testing.

“I can resist anything but temptation” – Oscar Wilde

Should we try to resist temptations, or should we just give in to them?

“The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself, with desire for what its monstrous laws have made monstrous and unlawful.”– Oscar Wilde

These words from Oscar Wilde’s plays reflect the attitude of most of the world to temptation. It is in complete contrast to the response that Jesus had when He was tempted. Have you ever been tempted?

I have several temptations; one that I have suffered from for many years is the temptation to eat for comfort, which explains why I am a very cuddly person. I suppose it also explains why food and love are connected in my mind. I can honestly say yielding to temptation does not make the temptation go away.

I couldn’t change the eating for comfort thing by myself – Jesus actually came in and changed that one for me. I went through a trauma so bad a few years ago that I didn’t want to live anymore. I was contemplating suicide, but I had made a deal with my daughter, I keep breathing, she keeps breathing. I had been a Christian since I was 16 years old so instead I got down on my knees and said to God. “I can’t do this anymore, I have lost my baby and now my husband, I don’t want to keep breathing, I can’t do this, you have to take over Jesus, because I can’t live this life anymore! He took me at my word and in that instant Jesus did take over he transformed some things and my life once again changed forever.

From that day I fasted 40 days – it wasn’t a conscious choice on my part at the time, I just wasn’t hungry, I couldn’t eat, I had only 1 meal a day and sometimes that was breakfast, friends and family who knew what I was going through and were worried about me, cared enough to keep inviting me to dinner – where I would have to eat to be polite – there’s that love and food connection – maybe we all have it. I lost quite a bit of weight and was healthier physically and instead of turning to food for comfort – I couldn’t eat! A huge transformation! My life has changed so much since that day. But He is still working on me and my eating habits. I don’t eat for comfort anymore and with health issues my diet over the past few years has altered to a healthier one.

Today we read how Jesus spent 40 days in the wilderness – fasting and being tested – before his ministry began. I went 40 days and then God put my feet firmly on the path that lead me to writing this here for you now. Jesus passed the severe test out in the desert. He did the 40 days for me too, because I do not have the willpower to do that. I have been tested many times in many things since then some I passed, sadly some I didn’t, results are much better when we can let Him do it for us. I thank Jesus that we have Grace, God is good!