I did not begin today intending to write this or feel like I am.
The Bible says trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths'. (Proverbs 3:5-6 NKJV) But what if you just got hit by an emotional brick and your path ahead is full of potholes, some that may be unavoidable and that could lead through more pain, pressure and problems?
John the Baptist's did. He didn't deserve imprisonment. He was the one leading the way for Jesus, breaking the ground before him, he was a voice of God in the community. Plus he was Jesus' cousin. I don't deserve the persecution I am currently suffering either, I have done nothing to deserve it and at least I am therefore in good company.
John sent Jesus a message asking him, 'Are you really the Messiah, or should we keep looking?' Paraphrased: 'Lord, if I'm in Your will, how come this is happening to me?'
All who walk with God will likely end up asking this at some time in their life. Because God said that we would have blessings - but with persecution. Jesus himself knew, like me, what it was to be falsely accused. They accused him of consorting with demons and casting out demons by the power of Satan (How likely is that do you think? It's rediculous). Jesus also said, 'They hate me, so they will hate you also.' In this corrupt sin-infected world, we cannot expect easy lives.
We think, 'Lord, I've obeyed You, why is this happening to me?' It feels worse when you've faithfully served Him. But its likely, because we have faithfully served Him that we have come to the attention of the enemy. I ask myself, is this my Battle and I think, NO this is not my Battle really it is God's, but it is destroying my family and hurting those I love. Where are you Lord?
Jesus could have saved John, but He didn't. Instead He sent back word: 'Don't worry, everything's on target, the Kingdom is being built. You did your job well'. (Matthew 11:4-5 paraphase). The truth is that John didn't expect his cousin to come at the head of an Army and break him out of prison. He needed to know for sure that Jesus was worth his life. That there would be a place for him in heaven. Jesus was, and still is worth my life, and there was a place for John in the eternal Kingdom.
I am aware that God sees the big picture and He's handling issues I can't even begin to imagine. I am not about to stop trusting Him. The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not put it out. HE LIVES! After all if the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming head on collision with a train - thats just a quick trip home. It's life that's my problem - He's got death covered. I am going to keep crying out to God for vindication, please pray for my family and I.